Its In Me

I know that its in me to be extremely successful. I know that if i placed my time and resources into achieving what i want i could do it. I believe that deep down inside of me, i have it in me to be where i want to be. I can feel it burning in me at times, that desire to work hard and be successful.
I have been extremely blessed to have been admitted at my number one school, with a full ride, the promise of being a scholar. Someone who goes to every single class, and sits at the front learning and interacting with her education. Someone who casually scored 90's and 100's on exams, and who studied really hard. Someone who got involved in other activities and was truly a great student.
My entire freshman year I felt that somehow that dream eluded me. I spent many nights procrastinating when i should have been studying. I didn't go in for help when i should have, even when the help was right outside my door. I ended up with grades that weren't all so crappy but i know i could have done much much better. So at the end i cried alot, and felt like a big failure because here i was with a 3.3 when in reality i could have gotten a 3.5 with more effort.
Somewhere along the line i forgot about
-always going to class
-but that going to class only had a meaning if i stayed awake and didn't text
-that it was pointless to take notes unless i truly planned to study
-after taking an exam, the best thing to do was to go get help on the problems i got wrong because most surely they would be on the final
-and i forgot about getting things done in time

Knowing all this now, has helped me realize something truly important. Half of the gift, is having it, but the most important part is knowing how to use it. An umbrella on a rainy day is pointless if you don't know how to use, a swimsuit hanging in your closet is obsolete if you aren't willing to walk to the beach...

So knowing that i have in it me to be a great student, and a successful person is only half of it and could easily become obsolete, if i don't place my time and resources into making myself efficient and accomplishing what i want to.


I promise that i am going to learn how to use my gifts, and learn how to use what is around to be truly successful, because earnestly none of us has the power to make something out of nothing.