cell phone postings 10/12

so i keep notes on my phone
and someday hope to turn into a poem

i haven't had time to seriously look these over
so im just going to post them
and call them ....
i don't know what im calling them yet

#1
you learn to love people and your dreams
in the strangest of ways
i can only think
of how i always dreamt you up
as my dream guy

the guy that was attractive
well dressed
polite
intelligent
hard working
driven
and family oriented

i thought of us being
the couple
that would go to church on Sunday
travel the world
through fabulous dinner parties
and dance while everyone smiled
watching us, watch each other

i could almost imagine
what it would be like
to dance 'el farolito'
at our wedding
wondering how far the years brought us

i can only marvel
at how far i allowed my mind
to travel in the future
with a ticket that had yet to be paid in full

#2
its time to give up all the things that didn't belong to me

#3
ya no se como contener
este veneno
dentro de mi que me consume
veneno que me destruye
cuando me recuerdo todo
lo que de mi no he logrado
desprender
por ser cobarde
he dejado escapar el remedio
que me hubiese aliviado
de este profundo
dolor que vive en mi
y no logra absolverse