i was feeling a bit down today, and i spent so much time thinking of all my relationships gone wrong, all the things i said that i shouldn't have said, and all the things i wish i could change. i know i know, i'm only 18, but soon enough in less than a month im going to turn 19. i don't know if i'm ready for that. but there's one thing that cheered me up today, and it was this quote...when i was young i wrote it on the cover of the book, that listed all the things i wanted to do by the time i was 20, i wrote that list when i was 13. and i realized that despite everything i went through, i still want to accomplish alot of those things, i still want every single one of those things...its just that now i know it takes a bit more work, a lot more that i thought. so even 5-6 years down the line i want all those things, and deep down im still that girl, but something has been left behind, and heres the quote...

We are going to Mars because whatever is wrong with us will not get right with us so we journey forward, carrying the same baggage

But every now and then leaving one little bitty thing behind
[Nikki Giovanni]